I know I’ve successfully got back to meditating, as I’m missing meditating at the moment as I’m unable to mediate as I’m not well.

It’s not that I can’t meditate, it’s that I’ve been told not to as it’s difficult for themselves to get through the illness and speak clearly to me.

Meditating When Ill

It is annoying that I have been told by my deities not to meditate when ill.

However, I can see their point. When I am ill, I do not connect with the meditative world particularly well. I can get there easily enough, but my concentration ebbs and fades.
It is more difficult to hang on to things than it would be if I were well.


Earlier in June, after being in hospital, I had trouble exerting myself physically and my doctor diagnosed me with malaise. I was off work for three months and then on a phased return, where you gradually build up the days you are working till you get back to work full-time.

Even when I was back at work full-time I wasn’t fully well, which meant that I couldn’t meditate, as I had been told not to meditate when I wasn’t well by my deities.

This week is the first week in six months I’ve got back to meditation. I got in to it fairly easily, but was not there for long. Like everything else, I expect it to get easier the more I practice.

I’ve also been told to meditate every week, so I will hopefully soon be back to where I was before I was off ill.

Following Deities

When you’re a polytheist you follow many deities. At the moment, I mainly follow The Morrigan and one or two others who will pop up during meditation.

I find that that’s the problem with being a polytheist. You’re not fixed to one or two deities, so you have to get to know a variety, all of whom have demands on you to do various things.
When meditating, except for The Morrigan, I never know who will turn up. Sometimes it’s deities I’ve never seen before.

Thankfully so far they have only made demands that I have been capable of doing.

Back in Meditation

Yesterday was the first time (apart from once last month) that I have meditated in a year. I will be going back to meditating once per week, as this needs to be a constant part of my practice.

I picked up from where I left off, meeting deities and being given homework by them. Thankfully I have until the end of 2013 to do it, but I will try and do it soon or, like all homework, it just builds up.

I also wrote the meditation down straight after I finished. I am going to discipline myself to do this, as there are too many entries in my diary saying “I have meditated recently, I just haven’t written it down”. I want to write every meditation down, so I can see my development.