Nothing Doing


I seem to have hit a patch where I am not really doing anything. I am still reading the horoscope which I calculate for myself every day, flametending and observing the festivals, but I am only doing that which is necessary. I’m still trying to draw Irish deity trees, but that is because Brigit wants me to write an article, which is dependent on the family structure of deities.

This inactivity is not by choice : I have been trying to slow down for many years and failing. At the moment I am getting professional help as I am currently suffering from chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia. On top of that I seem to have a more or less permanent cold. Or sometimes it’s sinusitis or just a bug.

I have a toddler and my ill health really impacts on him. For example, I can’t take him out to the playground on my own if I’m ill. Fortunately, he is happy wherever he is, but he’s still missing out and I don’t want him to. So this is a time when my health is taking centre stage.

When I am well (not counting my chronic conditions) I need to focus on sorting myself out and for once, taking care of myself.

This blog will continue for as long as I have something to write and as long as it continues being fun to write it, which is why I do it.

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Imbolc


This year Imbolc fell on one of the days my son goes to preschool.  Great!  I thought, I’ll be able to get my ritual done without him here.  I love my son dearly, but it’s much more relaxing and easier to concentrate on doing rituals and spells without the fear of him waking up or having to accommodate him.

Then it snowed and his school contacted me to say they had to shut the school down.  So I waited for him to go to sleep and did a scaled-down ritual inside.  I normally use nine flames in nine jars with salt and milk, but this time I only used three as the area I have to work with is small.

The ritual went well, even though I’d decided to leave the cat in the room.  She looked settled and would probably have spent the entire ritual miaowing at the door and distracting me if I’d thrown her out.  Thankfully she stayed where she was, as cats seem to have a natural instinct for where magic or ritual is being performed and will happily wander across a circle as they choose.

Afterwards I made my Brigit cross and performed the house protection spell.

Christians and Pagans


A roleplaying game I was recently playing reminded me of some of the anti-Christian attitudes I had seen on the net and I’d like to say a few things.

My background is that I am a former Christian whose father is a retired Church of Scotland minister, so I have forgotten more of the Bible than most Christians know.  I have met many Christians : good ones, bad ones, knowledgeable ones and indifferent ones.  I would say that this is reflected in paganism : I’ve met good pagans, bad ones, knowledgeable ones and some that are living in cloud cuckoo land.

I will not deny that Christianity has harmed a lot of people, on the other hand Pagans threw Christians to the lions and I feel that if we had treated Christianity with tolerance then they would have shown tolerance to us in return.  In short, we taught them persecution instead of tolerance.

I have come across the attitude that Pagans don’t commit crimes, but I have worked in a prison and at one point there were three inmates who identified as Pagan.  Pagans are people and I suspect have just as much percentage of abusers, rapists, murderers and criminals as other religions do, the only difference is that since we’re not yet organised our crimes involve fewer people.

Disinformation – Rant


This is a bit of a rant.  Recently someone posted a link called “how to observe the Sabbats”.  I gave it a look and was annoyed to find it stated that Brigid was a goddess of the crossroads.

I commented on this, and the poster said “I just posted it”.  If you post things, please make sure you know that they’re correct and don’t disseminate any old bilge water.  There’s enough rubbish going around the net without people perpetrating it.

Imbolc Preparation


It seems odd to think of Imbolc preparation so early in the month, but after the secular New Year (which I celebrate because of my husband, but it is not my New Year) I start clearing things out.

I go through my mobile and clear out my contacts, messages and bookmarks.  I also clear out contacts and files on the computer.  I keep bookmarks in an email message on the computer, as I have had repeated problems with my computer account being lost and my bookmarks are suddenly gone. 

I go through my books and give any that are unwanted to charity.  I would do the same for clothing, but I had a clearout last July.  I used to clear out any cupboards, but with a toddler and medical condition I would not be able to complete this before Imbolc.

No Altar


I follow several deities but at the moment I have no altars to them. I am planning an altar to Brigit as it will help focus my flametending, but there is no hurry as she has not asked for it and seems amused at my promise.

To be honest, this is because I grew up as a Scottish Protestant. We have asceticism and restraint built into our worship and our churches have little adornment and no golden objects in them.

If my deities required it, I have would have to do it, especially Sianon unless I like problems with the water in my house.

Seasons Change


This is the time when the seasons are busy changing.  I notice it the most in my garden; the ground is now too cold for weeding and I am busy pruning, clearing the drive and putting drainage holes in the lawn.

I notice it also in the produce available in the shops; raspberries are no longer found and turnips have become available again.

Deity Family Trees


I am currently trying to do family trees for the Irish deities without my head exploding.  This is because I theorise that various professions were handed down in families and I am trying to find out if my theory is correct.

For example, we have Ogma, who developed the ogham alphabet and his son Coirpre, who is a poet.  Thus we have writing as the family profession.

How Traditional are you?


To answer my own question, I base my own practice on tradition but I am not going to vet everything I do scrupulously to make sure it’s traditional. Yes, elements creep in that I have made up, especially as I have no teacher, so my practice evolves from what I have read in books or on the net with things that are relevant to the occasion added in. This is most likely to happen in ritual, as I cast the circle and then speak from the heart and in the moment without script. I will research the festival beforehand, but what I speak is from my head.

Autumn


It is Autumn here in England. For me, Autumn is when the trees start shedding their leaves. They do this because they are getting less light. This is because the Earth rotates on its axis as well as rotating around the sun and the part of the sphere I am currently living on is slowly rotating away from the sun.

However, that is the scientific reason. I confess that I would prefer there to be an occult reason, but I have not yet found one that fits with my beliefs. I have heard the one about the Oak King and the Holly King fighting for dominance and Brigit giving way to The Cailleach, but it just doesn’t ring true for me.

When I became Pagan, many books I read stated that this was the season that plants started dying. No, they don’t. Farmers will confirm that there are crops which are farmed at winter, for example winter barley. Any gardener will tell you that some plants have foliage all year round. Grass lives all year round and can be found under the snow.

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