Returning to Meditating


I haven’t meditated in a long while. This was because I was always feeling tired and I had been told by deities not to meditate when feeling ill. Since I’ve been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, I know it’s a disability to work around, not an illness and today I have gone back to meditating.

Thankfully there is no fall out from my deities from not meditating. I talked to them about it and they told me that since I thought I was ill and stopped because of that, I was doing what I was told. I have found in the past that “I didn’t know” is not a valid excuse when dealing with deities.

I’ve decided to meditate on Mondays. I want to meditate once a week and if I have a bad day with my fibromyalgia it’s not a good time to meditate, or if my son has a bad night then I won’t meditate on Monday because I’ll start falling asleep during meditation and annoy my deities. At the moment it’s far too easy to for things to shift to the right in my life (for example, I was planning to post this on Monday and it’s now Wednesday) and intending to meditate on a Monday ensures I do meditate once a week as I’ll meditate on another day if things are bad.

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Other People’s Spells


A spell which has been given to you will never work for you; you have to design your own spells.

This is because you are not living in the writer’s world with all the associations the writer has. For example, a lot of people will say that green is associated with money. This is because in The States money is printed in green whereas in Britain money is printed in different colours for different denominations, so I do not have the association green=money and a spell that utilised that association would not work for me.

Your own spells work because you understand not only all the associations but how and why and the reason(s) it was put together.

Beliefs


What you believe shapes your world. I’ve just been watching the film “Shadowlands” in which the author C.S. Lewis suffered a lot because he believed that it was the natural state of people to suffer.

Granted, a film is not real life, but I believe that if you believe people should suffer then you will subconsciously seek out situations where you suffer. Before you get angry, please note that this is a generalisation and I am not saying that people are responsible for the bad things that happen to them.

What I am saying is that if you believe that you deserve a good life, good things and people around you, then you will seek out good things and good people – but you may still end up in a car crash, train wreck or other trauma through no fault of your own.

A good example is that I used to end up with partners who were not good for me. Then I started thinking to myself “I deserve to be with a good person” and I started ending up with better and better partners.

Carving Myth


I have read in other places the myth that “the wood always takes blood from the carver”. When I did some carving classes, my teacher warned us that this was a myth. He also told us that we should always carve away from our hands and he would shout at anyone who he saw carving towards their hands.

This was not a problem for me, as I had learned my lesson the hard way when doing lino cutting in art classes at school. However, he never had to shout at anyone and no-one ever spilled blood in his class.

Divination


There are many methods of divination. This is because all divination requires is ascribing meanings to various symbols and then pulling them out at random or thinking about the question with eyes shut, then opening them and seeing what there is.

I once selected a number of stones at random, closed my eyes and decided what the stone I picked out was going to represent (e.g. work life, love live etc) and then picked one. It was quite basic, but it worked.

A friend of mine once ascribed meaning to the dots on six-sided dice. I meant to try this method, but I put the book under my bed when my parents were coming round and the damn thing has disappeared. It’s especially annoying as I have a dice program on my phone, so I could easily try his system out.

Tarot cards are so prevalent because unlike systems such as cloud or fire divination they can be used as long as you have a light source. I’m best at cloud divination, but in Britain the sky can be a mass of solid grey cloud, which we Scots call dreich and is no use for divination.

I can’t get on with fire divination or any method that involves scrying : I just don’t have the talent for it. Someone tried to teach me many years ago and I tried, but just couldn’t get the hang of it at all.

Illness


I have heard that you shouldn’t perform witchcraft while ill. I would amend that and say I would not perform witchcraft while I was unable to function except if it was an emergency.

To muddy the waters further, I have found I am unable to read tarot cards with a headache but would have no problem performing witchcraft. Others may be able to read the tarot with a headache as it could be that the reason that I am unable to read with a headache is because I’m not very good at reading the tarot.

In other words, it’s up to you and your own limitations. I imagine there are a lot of people thinking “that’s not very helpful” but if you have fibromyalgia (like me) or another ongoing illness then there are days where you can perform witchcraft and then there are days when only two brain cells turn up for work and you’re not going to be able to do anything.

Newspaper Astrology


The problem with newspaper astrology is that it focuses only on the sign your Sun is in. It’s particularly inaccurate for me as my Sun is in Scorpio, but the vast majority of my planets are in air and fire signs.

This means that when the newspapers say that my Sun is in Cancer or Capricorn and good things will happen, they are dead wrong.

This is because the Sun makes some very nasty aspects (see bottom of this post for details if you’re interested) in those signs and only one nice aspect.

I am currently having a very hard year because Saturn is in Capricorn (which the papers probably say great times for me) and for most of this year making some nasty aspects.

This is why I calculate my own astrological chart.

Saturn aspects : square natal Moon, conjunct natal Jupiter, square natal Pluto (there’s roughly a 0.2 degree orb between the natal Moon squaring natal Jupiter, which is one of the reasons why it’s lasting so long).

Sun in Cancer aspects : first a sextile with natal Mars, then makes a cardinal cross with square natal Moon, square natal Pluto and opposite natal Jupiter. Later it squares natal Venus/Uranus conjunction and lastly trine Sun.

Sun in Capricorn aspects : square natal Moon, conjunct natal Jupiter and square natal Pluto. Later square natal Venus/Uranus conjunction and lastly sextile Sun.

Dark Fluffies


This is a term a friend of mine coined to describe fluffy bunnies who are not all “everything in the universe is lovely” but still manage to combine the ignorance and idiocy of your generic fluffy.

For anyone who is ignorant of the term “fluffy” a good example is a sister of a friend of mine who was telling him that you could cure any illness by rolling around in grass yet went to A&E when she had a broken collarbone. He encourages her for the entertainment value.

Dark fluffies are those who will happily tell you all about how to curse, but when you ask them how to cure mysteriously fall silent. They are those who will extol using blood in spells for everything, when it’s obvious it will not work for a cleansing spell.

Midsummer


This is the first ritual I’ve done in a while. All the tests came back from my doctor negative, so I assume the tiredness was my fibromyalgia stepping up a gear. I say “was” because the last time I was flametending I asked Brigit for healing. Last Monday I tried to walk around the sward and felt knackered after it. The next day I felt fine, despite going out to a toddler group. The third day I weeded the drive for half an hour and felt fine, where normally it would have had me on the sofa. It looks like Brigit has answered my prayers, although I’m being cautious and taking it gently for now.

The ritual went well and was lovely. All my rose bushes were out, which added to the atmosphere. The first one to come out was my old-fashioned pink climber called Celsiana, which smells how you think roses should smell and is now past its best. The second is in the height of its glory and is an old-fashioned off-white rambler called Garland. The last is a red tea rose called Fragrant Glory which has a strong smell.

Hiatus


I’ve not really been doing anything apart from flametending and what I call my daily practice i.e. talking to my ancestors and reading the horoscope that I calculate for myself, as I’ve been suffering from tiredness.

I am currently awaiting blood tests to come back from the doctors. Hopefully it will be vitamin D deficiency (which I have had before) or another vitamin deficiency rather than diabetes or my fibromyalgia stepping up a gear.

I was going to write a pagan post, but I thought I’d use this as an example of when not to use magic.

You see, I ran into someone asking for help to do a voodoo or hoodoo cleansing on a Facebook group. After I queried why (and people had given assistance) he told us it was because he was tired all the time and thought he was being psychically attacked. It turned out he had not been to the doctors.

I do not know what happened to him, but in a case such as his and mine it is best to get it investigated by the doctors, take their advice/medicine and if that does not help, then use magic. Also, it takes more time and work to do a spell rather than make an appointment with your doctor, turn up and have blood tests done.

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